Thoughts, thoughts thoughts……… another year almost over…….another week gone by with no writings to show for the week… have had plenty of revelatory thoughts since my awakening, but find it such a chore to make the time to sit down and write them up…although I find plenty of time to waste time surfing on the internet, playing games. I don’t want it to be a chore, as it is genuinely what I want to do.
I am finding it so difficult to pray... my sinfulness is getting in the way…. Holding on to texts….."Believe and be saved, he is able to keep you from falling, he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ". (He WILL perform it)
I need to pray for patience, for forgiveness…
I need to pray.
30 December, 2007
23 December, 2007
Sabbath 23rd December
More than ever yet, I am feeling the conflict inside between the old man and the new.
This new life, although it has been almost 4 years since awakening, is so faint, so weak. I find it such a struggle to pray, instead getting caught up in the cares and pleasures of this world.
I had wanted this to be a daily blog, to be my fruit, the spirit is willing but the flesh is so weak.
I had quite a good week actually until yesterday, prayed often, enjoyed the inner peace and comfort, but now feel as though I am back to square 1.
This new life, although it has been almost 4 years since awakening, is so faint, so weak. I find it such a struggle to pray, instead getting caught up in the cares and pleasures of this world.
I had wanted this to be a daily blog, to be my fruit, the spirit is willing but the flesh is so weak.
I had quite a good week actually until yesterday, prayed often, enjoyed the inner peace and comfort, but now feel as though I am back to square 1.
16 December, 2007
Sabbath 16th December 2007
Providentially
page 385 Free Presbyterian Magazine, volume 1
Sacramental address – “But where, you will perhaps ask, is this glorious One to be found? - At His table.”
Having prayed often for a more personal knowledge of Jesus, and having backslidden these last couple of weeks, I returned unto Him today in prayer mourning my many sins and weaknesses. I found the above answer upon resuming my reading of this book from where I had left of some weeks before.
Also later in this sacramental address, page 387, “By slow steps, and after many rebukes, does a believer begin to know experimentally that his strength is not in himself but in Christ.”
“At His table” – Now I must pray that I may have His strength to return unto church and so approach His table.
“Not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together.” Hebrews chapter 10. I have had this text in my mind for many months now.
Providentially
I have today reached Mr Spurgeon`s 91st sermon taken from the 10th chapter of Hebrews.
The daily light reading for today contains my verse - Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ.
page 385 Free Presbyterian Magazine, volume 1
Sacramental address – “But where, you will perhaps ask, is this glorious One to be found? - At His table.”
Having prayed often for a more personal knowledge of Jesus, and having backslidden these last couple of weeks, I returned unto Him today in prayer mourning my many sins and weaknesses. I found the above answer upon resuming my reading of this book from where I had left of some weeks before.
Also later in this sacramental address, page 387, “By slow steps, and after many rebukes, does a believer begin to know experimentally that his strength is not in himself but in Christ.”
“At His table” – Now I must pray that I may have His strength to return unto church and so approach His table.
“Not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together.” Hebrews chapter 10. I have had this text in my mind for many months now.
Providentially
I have today reached Mr Spurgeon`s 91st sermon taken from the 10th chapter of Hebrews.
The daily light reading for today contains my verse - Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ.
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